Our Mad Crazy Psycho Adventures Continue....

Leave me alone boy!

2005-11-09T23:35:00.000+08:00

I hope you're happy now. You still have ALL your friends.. my friendships hang by a thread. Any well well well... why am I not surprised.. you not around again. You're never around. Really.. the post before this? I thought I made a mistake.. I thought that It's time I set things right. Turns out that Things are just the way It should be. Did I not tell you to not call my friends? To NOT talk to them? Are you experienceing any problems like this? Your friends are around you.. there for you to support you... Why must you come to MY friends.. ask them to make me miss you.. what is this???? I told you to leave me alone. you said you would. You Said you wont call my friends.. now I hear that you are calling them. YOu type a letter addressed to me but you make my friends read it... what the hell is going on??? Daniel.. what is wrong with you?? Which part of stay out of my life do you not understand??? Well what ever it Is.. at the end of this.. know that I REALLY hate you. The one thing I had left you took away frm me. The only female friends I have. I bet you're really happy now. Satisfied? Having your revenge perhaps?? Well Thanks. I can see how much I mean to you and how you truely love me. Thank you for everything. Words cannot express my rage. I can't even think about you without wanting to hit you. And what did you tell people?? I still hold your hand??? I still kiss you????? wtf is this? I'm not saying you have to help me undo anything. I just want you to to leave me alone. Leave my friends alone. If I can do it I don't see why you can't.

My First Love

2005-11-07T00:22:00.000+08:00

I tried to be perfect for you but I know I'm not perfect.
I want things to remain the same but I want things to change.
I know you're the one for me but I know you're not the one.
I wish things were better but I wish nothing happened.
I tend to think about you but I don't want to remember you.
I see it will work with u but i also see it won't.
I can cry a river but I can't seem to shed a tear.
I hurt you but I did not hurt you.
I tried you but I failed you.

I giving but I'm selfish.
I love but I'm hating.
I feeling but I'm numb.
I trust yet I don't believe.
I know but I don't know.
I want to but I don't.
I understand but I'm confused.
I live but I died a long time ago.

Its been a while

2005-10-31T19:59:00.000+08:00

Yeah... been a while since I posted anything here... I would just like to say this to Joanne. Babes, I know you're angry with me now, and that I really should've thought really hard before saying what I did on the phone. But you have to understand where I'm coming from. On Sunday, you were your usual self towards me, and then the very next day when I called you, all I got was someone who was very cold to me. It hurt very bad. As much as you want me to forget about you, I can't. I love with all my heart and I love you unconditionally. I hope that you remember that and think it through. I can't find any other way of expressing my true feelings towards you except through this blog that we created for ourselves. Joanne, I miss you more than anything right now. The perfect song to sum up all my feelings is Def Leppard's "When Love & Hate Collide". If you have the time please listen to it. Although its been over a month, I still cry myself to sleep every night because I feel so lonely. You touched me more deeply than anyone has in my 23 years on this Earth. I just wish I could be there for you on your 21st birthday, to see you blow out your candles. I reall y wish that we were back together. You were not just my girlfriend. We were partners in crime, confidants to each other, best friends, lovers and so much more. Baby, I still love you no matter you say to me. Nothing will ever change that. To me, you're still the most beautiful creature that I've ever laid eyes on. And no matter what, you're still my princess, my angel with bright eyes. I love you.

Happy 23rd Birthday???

2005-10-02T00:06:00.000+08:00

Today was my 23rd birthday. And it wasn't really happy. True, I did the things I love to do today, which included jamming, going to Borders and watching some heavy metal vids at man's place. True, I was with my closest friends. But one thing was missing. Joanne. I missed her presence dearly today. It was difficult not to feel that way because during my last 2 birthdays, she was with me. In fact, she actually organised my whole birthday for me last year. This year, I didn't have a birthday cake, but I didn't mind. What really got to me was the fact that I spent it without her. The pain is terrible.

I miss her very much. I miss the times we used to spend together. This year she wanted to bring me to the Night Safari for my birthday. In the end, she went on a date with another guy, while I spent it in loneliness with friends. I want her back in my life. I regret all my actions which made her angry with me. I regret not keeping my promises to change.

All I want is for her to come back, and make my life happy again...

Life as it is...

2005-09-10T09:47:00.000+08:00

Sorry for not posting anything recently. Been very busy with all the sailing and duty and shit. Will be sailing for Tioman on Thursday. Not expecting that much shore leave which sucks. Only 2 and 1/2 days this time round. Which in a weird way is better because that means I won't be blowing so much money when I'm there. Besides, I still have to pay my income tax and other bills. Buying Nan's handphone as well. Can't jam today. I'm so fucking pissed off about that.

Intention for today is to play some Burnout: Revenge and then head off to catch United kick some City ass. Ahhhh... The Manchester Derby. I was so fucking ecstatic when City was promoted because that meant that there's at least 2 derbies every season. You can get really bored watching the Merseyside Derby and the various other London derbies but for some reason, there's always something special about the Manchester Derby, regardless of the result. Well... I'm kinda stuck so I'll just end it here for the moment.

Hehe...

2005-08-27T12:39:00.000+08:00

Alice Cooper....
You come across as having a twisted creative mind
and a liking for the dark. You are dark and
mysterious. You also have a very strong moral
outlook on life and are quite smart. Probably
a good person with a wild side or a wild person
with a good side. Either way. You can be
entertaining without using substances either.

Which rockstar are you like?
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Just another day...

2005-08-24T23:57:00.000+08:00

Today I...

- Had my first day at work at the "Clinic for Pets"
- Lost my phone today (SigH~*)
- Missed Daniel's call before he left for the south china sea.
- Ate at Seoul Garden with Nan and Adila
- Went scouting for new phone with Man in TPY
- Got Daniel a little something to cheer him up
- Saved thirty bucks

I'm pretty happy despite the fact that I lost my phone and all my dog care memories. The only way I could see my Anabelle. Ah well.. I've developed a soft spot for small dogs.

Ozzfest... Maidenfest???

2005-08-24T12:17:00.000+08:00

The uproar concerning how Iron Maiden were disrespected onstage by Sharon Osbourne and her ridiculously un-talented daughter Kelly is still going on. Everywhere on the Maiden forums, people are baying for Osbourne blood. And its no wonder. Sharon's ego couldn't take the fact that Iron Maiden drew more fans to the Ozzfest concerts than her husband's own screwed up Black Sabbath.
No disrepect intended towards Tony Iommi, the godfather of Metal but Sabbath these days just plain sucks. Ozzy seems to be having breakdowns whenever he takes the stage. And as some people have described, he croaks worse than a half-dead frog. As far as Sabbath are concerned, I feel that they hit their peak when they replaced the drunken junkie known as Ozzy with the great Ronnie James Dio.

Ozzfest started as a series of concerts to introduce new and upcoming bands as well as to bring metal to the masses. What happened instead was metalheads everywhere were paying good money to watch crap bands take the stage. There were a few exceptions over the years where Slayer, Judas Priest, Pantera, Arch Enemy and recently Iron Maiden were invited to join in on the Ozzfest bandwagon. Bands who were not playing on the main stage had to fork out cash to be able to play on the 2nd stage. And for the most part, the bands that played during the Ozzfest were mainly nu - (read un-) metal bands.

There was a point in time where I was asking why MetallicA were not invited to perform at the Ozzfest gigs. And after the Maiden incident, I got my answer. MetallicA would've outshined, outperformed and make Ozzy Osbourne look like a complete idiot. And there's no way that Sharon's ego would've taken that. But I seriously doubt she'd have the balls to try and disrespect MetallicA in the same way that she disrespected Iron Maiden. Metallica have a WAY bigger fan base in the US and when it comes to the audience, 90% of them would've been there just to catch MetallicA on stage.

Hopefully, Maiden will pick up on the idea of starting a Maidenfest and hopefully, Maidenfest will come down to Asia. And what would really make my day, Eddie beating the crap out of Sharon Osbourne on stage.

2 years and 5 months today...

2005-08-23T23:56:00.000+08:00

I start m new Job tomorrow... Kennel keeper with some grooming involved. I'll be working at the "Clinic for Pets" at Paya Lebar. Very nice people.. I'll be lerning about veterinary tech stuff too.. which means.. EXPOSURE! =D I'm glad I'll be working.. can pay my next bill..will havemoney to go out..willbeable tostart saving.

My brother is in the hospital agin.. sigh.. why can't he take care of himself... and my mom is so stressed out.. every tiny problem is my fault. I wish I was invisible..

Today.. 23rd Aug.. 2 years and 5 months.. glad i got to spend it with Daniel. He's going OBO next year.. 4 months.. won't see him for our 3rd year anniversary. Guess it'll be just another ordinary day.

The iPod of Doom is back... with a vengeance!!!

2005-08-23T23:34:00.000+08:00

Today, Joanne and I celebrated 2 years and 5 months together by trying to kick each other's ass in Halo 2. Not exactly something a normal couple would do on their monthly anniversary but hell, it was fun. Anyways, as most people know, we're not your run-of-the-mill couple.

For a start, we're both very open to each other. We both know each other inside out, to the point that we can predict each other's next move. People may say that we're not the only couple that's capable of this but I can rebutt with this statement - We know each other TOO well.

Yet another thing is that we do things that most couples won't really do together. Most couples just go clubbing together or catch a movie or something. With Joanne and myself, we've been to metal gigs together, the Deep Purple concert, and much more. We still plan trips to the zoo and bird park together along with little holiday trips ( although the only one we had together was Koh Samui). We do almost everything together, be it jamming or even following her when she decides to go underwear shopping ( which can be very embarassing at times) .

So there, no matter what I don't think we're going to stop doing what we do now as a couple. Its now more a part of our lives than anything else. So yeah. Happy 2 years and 5 months love.

And in other news, the iPod of Doom is back with a vengeance!!! As I'm typing this out, I'm updating the iPod with all of 1549 songs. Feels good to have my entire library back with me wherever I may roam. Going to have to upgrade this fucked up computer soon. Might be switching over to Mac, which means no more worries about Internet Explorer exploits and starting up yer computer only for a window to pop up saying that the computer has recovered from a serious error that you didn't know about. Anyways, a lot more thought has to go into that before I act.

Irritated...

2005-08-16T12:41:00.000+08:00

Okay.. so last night was not exactly that fun... but it was alright.. I played Halo 2. so that counts for something. Daniel does not like me playing mahjong... sigh.. he's mean. He's been.. kinda "pms-y" on me... very touchy.. I hate it when he quits a game he's playing when he's not doing too well... It's SO irritating and attention seeking that I really have half a mind of bashing his head through the wall. He CANNOT be outdone in any game... If he is.. he'll quit and be like that Arsenal footbal coach and whine about how sucky his controls were or how he's lost on the map.. or how he keeps getting stuck. He refuses to admit he was looking at my screen.. It's hard to belive that he does not do it cause he does it all the time in CS.. and when it comes to x-box.. 2 people share one screen so it's even easier... Talking about it makes me so Irritated. Guess yesterday did not turn out the way I wanted it to. Ah well... I got a call form a friend yesterday... She said she missed me.. I was so touched! Nobody has actually called me to say they miss me at work... It feels like home there.. It's peaceful.. the people are nice... Everything is convenient...sigh.. I miss it so much there. Anyway.. today i have a meeting with the groomers in Ang Mo Kio.. so yeah... I hope they have grooming tables and harnesses. If they don't I'll hang my self. Okay maybe I won't.. but It'll be good if they do. Maybe I should free Lance for a while... Hmm.. Think that would work ???? it just might... I don't know... Adila can drive.. so.. Who knows...

We have an iPod down!

2005-08-15T15:18:00.000+08:00

My iPod needs servicing. Sigh. Back to the discman and a bag full of CDs. I need to carry 2 CD wallets around now.

So tired...

2005-08-15T10:18:00.000+08:00

Today I have nothing to do except to go to church and to meet Daniel. Yes.I am done with grooming school and I am done job hunting for the moment. My parents say I can take a rest.. so that's just what I'll do. Thinking of talking a trip to Bali.. For like 3 days.. lern to surf... But I don't know if Daniel can make it. Anyway.. Yesterday.. Went for a try out thing at puppy paradise.. God! Help the poor creatures that go there. That place.. Is.. Horrible!!!!!!! Goodness!!! *SPITS* They don't even dry the dog. She insists we don't use safty harnesses and she thinks it strangles the dogs.. YEAH FOR DUMB ASSES WHO WHAVE NO QUALIFICATION! She's so stupid! I don't know how she can be featured in magazines and shit. She's SO Stupid!! The whole time she was grooming, She kept smsing and she towards the end of the day, she would answer phonecalls and speaking in chinese, she would say that she would not know when she would be done and that she can't meet up with them yet.. athat she's still at work.. I got in at 11pm and I left after 7.30pm. I went out at abt 6 to have a smoke when the last dog was in the showe and made some phone calls. When I came back in I was sweeping the room and tidying up.. I asked her if there was anything else she wanted me to do.. she said.. oh just the last cocker. I was like okay.. so when I went to take out the trash as I came back I saw saw the cocker being carried to the grooming room. I started work on the cocker.. when i was done about 40 min later.. I came out to ask her if there was anything else she wanted to add or snip away; I found the rest of the shop dim. The lights and the front shutters were pulled down.. I asked some guy where Joleen is.. he said so calmly oh she left already.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
But she's not finished the dog yet! She did not tell me she left.. so I asked him.. so where is this cocker's owner ?? It's so late already.. Is she Here yet.. He happily replies.. Oh yeah!! She's just outside.. I was just talking to her. I was pissed... So I asked him.. why did you not tell me she's here.. You know what the Jackass replies???? "Oh. You did not ask.." he adds a funny smile to it pretending that it's really funny... I told him look.. If you want me to work for you we have to work as a team. If the owner is here you notify the groomer!!!! DUH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOW I HAVE NEVER Been so pissed in my whole entire life. Goodness!!!!! What rubbish... UUUUUURRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Note to everyone who sends their dogs to Puppy Patrol @ Bkt Timah for grooming.. BEWARE! Your pets are not taken care of!

I know that was not professional at all.. but really.. I hate the way they are treated. who picks a dog up from the floor to the table but just grabbing one paw!? They are so frieghtened... they pee on the table! She thinks the harnes is more dangerous then the dog just jumping off the table. I had to share the table with her.. she was doing a yorkie while I was doing the cocker. MY GOD!!!!!!

Ok enough talk of this... I am going out with Daniel today.. for dinner.. It's been a long time since we've had quality time.. So yeah.. Hope today will be nice.

Dan's Home...

2005-08-13T02:04:00.000+08:00

Went driving with some friends today.. went to pick Daniel up from Changi... later went to bedok to eat.. later again went to changi to check out the trannies.. it was.. well.. interesting considering that I've never seen this before.. later we sat on the beach and watched planes take off and land. Had awsome fun.. but came home at 2.. parents wer angry.. sigh.. oh well.. I hardly ever get out so I don't care.

He's comming home!! =D

2005-08-12T17:47:00.000+08:00

He's coming home!!! Got a call from daniel this morning! WeeE!!! he came back earlier than I thought he would! so now they dropping anchor at 6! Mark says he does not mind going to pick Daniel up.. so.. YAY!!! =D hehehe... so excited.. can't wait to see him! Hehe.. I'll be leaving soon.. going to meet mark at novena. HEHEHEHEHEHE~* LAters!!

P.S : HAppy Birthday Dez and Chubbs!!!! Have a blast tonight!! ;D Sorry I can't come to night.. I'm working tomorrow.. *sulk*

10th Day

2005-08-11T23:53:00.000+08:00

I went to work today... with a kind of sadness.. I knew it would my second last day.. Dog Care is like a second home to me. I feel as if I just started my school.. I know I can pull it off.. but.. I'm nervous. I spoke to Maggie about that gardens guy and his offer. I know I can pull it off.. but..I don't really feel like committing to him yet because I do not really like the way he presents himself... he's clumzy.. he's weird.. trips over wires.. dropps stuff.. probably slams his fingers in doors as well. His Idea of a price list is writing it on coulourd A4 paper and using tape to hold it onyo the glass. The name of the place is Pets Globe.. Honestly.. I know I can make this place happen.. It's just that.. I don't want it to seem like I'm taking over everything.. and another thing is that.. he keeps looking at me weird.. and when i turn to look at him.. he looks away as if he's not been looking.. I don't know what he's looking at.. but.. It's alittle scary. I missed my appointment at the Ang Mo Kio Groomers. I'm hopeless.. Another reason I don't want to turn him away is because he wants the help.. I cannot just drop him like that and leave him to survive on his own.. it's a mean thing to do.. I don' tknow.. for some reason i feel guilty. S$1200 + 14% CPF = monthly pay.. I work 6 days a week.. from 10am to 9pm. The working hours are crazy! from 10am to 7pm can understand... not 10am to 9PM!!

I don't know la... I'm so mentally stressed.. how do I know if i'm making the right choices... I have NO experience what so ever... I have my life to worry about.. my mom told me that some people are being asked to retire... My brother is getting married all of a sudden... I'll be gettin gmarried to dan in about 2 years... My life is moving faster each day.. I'm falling behind.. I can'tkeep up.. I'm.. so .. tired.

9th Day

2005-08-10T00:21:00.000+08:00

Today, I groomed a schnauzer. Mr. Kim Soon came in today and sead the words I've been dreadding to hear.. "Joanne.. you'll be graduating this saturday.. you'll get your certificate then."
*faints*
He gave me 3 numbers. prospective employers... one at marine parade.. one in ang mo kio.. one at gardens. I've not called marine parade. Ang mo kio asked me to come in tomorrow. But I managed to meet the guy at gardens. Well... Remember my dream of having mw own grooming salon? It's coming true! This guy wants to have a pet shop come grooming shop.. but he does not know how. He told me to go home and come up with the things I would need.. be it a washing machine.. hight speed dryer.. grooming tables.. sigh.. it's crazy!!!! I told I have to think it over with my parents and Dan and then tell him if I want to or not. He gave me until friday. I'm trying to doge him untill saturday. I'm going to speak to Mr. Kim Soom about this tomorrow. Sigh... so many things on my mind... I can't sleep... sigh... 2 more days.

8th Day

2005-08-09T23:56:00.000+08:00

Today.. I played mahjong... with my best friend.. her big brother and his girlfriend. Hehehehehe~~* DAMN fun!!! ;P Dan Called me today.. HAPPY!! But I was playing Mahjong.. so wrong timing.. But everytime he call I win! hehehe!! Friday he'll be coming back... 1900hrs.. by the time he secure.. I'm guessing it'll be 2200hrs.. I'll wait.. Like I always do.. Have much to talk about. Well.. I have school tomorrow.. I'm off to bed.. Still contemplating about friday. I think I'll call Chris tomorrow. *YawnS~* Night.

7th Day

2005-08-08T23:41:00.000+08:00

Dan is supposed to be in Singapore waters today..Can't wait. Miss him so much..

Today.. Went for my interview.. I like the people a lot.. But Marc does not smile.. So.. I'm pretty scared. Friday I have a trial thingy.. Have to be near St. Pats by 9.45am. It's really far... I might not take it. Everything is in the east.. Wish I was staying in that vicinity.

Well.. I'm rethinking the terrace house thing. I guess a hdb will do. =/ It's really saddening.. But it's more realistic not that I'm saying that we can't... We can try to pull it of.. Cause if it's free hold... My kids won't have to buy a house.. We can just pass it down from generation to generation... That kind of thing.

So yeah.. After the interview went to meet mum and nic (my brother) at lavender.. We headed to ROM.. Then to the Filipino Embassy.. Goodness. The hunt for it was so cool! It was at nassim road.. But we did not know where.. So we were just driving around.. I went pass the German ambassador's house.. The Russian ambassador's house and therussian embassy, Singapore's Chief Justice's home.. lets see.. what else did I see.. OOHH!!! and this Palace that belongs to some Arab person who probably deals withOil and pretious stones.. GOODNESS!! If u can.. Go look for it.. It's at the top of nassim hill... It's.. Fascinating to see how RICH the REALLY REALLY Rich are. After that hat to the Ministry of foreign affairs... I stayed in the care cause I did not have my IC.

Got home had lunch.. thn went to Dhoby Gaut to play Halo 2!!! WeeE~* While playing oli joined me.. She headed to Gotham i took her bag and headed home.. will be going her place tomorrow for Mahjong!! weeeee~* hehe ah well... I'm hungry.. going to get a snack b4I sleep.. night.

6th Day

2005-08-07T23:54:00.000+08:00

Had only one dog today.. a spoilt bratt, mummy's pampered pooch, walking table top.. A Welsh Corgi. After that.. went to Lilian's shop..It was SO PRETTY!!!!!!!!! Everything was in shades of pink!! =D I wish for nothing but good fortune for Lilian. =D

Headed to town after that... It's ali's 21st Birthday tomorrow.. wanted to play mahjong at olivia's place today.. but short 2 people.. sigh.. also I can't stay over night anywhere.. I get home sick.. Sigh.. how to get married.. Speaking of which... It's time to start saving money. Have an interview tomorrow.. at 520 East Coast Road, #01-06, Ocean Park. I have not the slightest idea on how Ii can get there. I spoke to him on the phone.. I just hope he does not think I'm ang moh.. since I was speaking proper english.. he started slang-ing.. ;P Oh well.. it's contageous.

I just realised something...every time there's a public holiday.. I never see Daniel. =( He worked on Easter.. Good friday.. New year.. Last year we were stuck in a cab.. massive traffic jam while on the way to the esplanade to watch the fire works.. we missed it. I've not gotten to watch fireworks with him.. I've watched it with so many other people but not Daniel.. It's not fair... Sigh.. was calculating how much we needed to save to get a house.. I think saving $800 bucks a month each is good enough. My aunt told me that one has to save one third of their pay.. which would be $800 for Daniel.. and if I get abt the same pay as he does.. $800 too... $1600 a month.. multiply that by 24 months would give you $38,400 ... that's enough cash in hand right? Ah well.. once we move in.. monthly we can slowly pay it off too.. cause even if we rent.. we'll be paying abt the same amount per month.. so yea..it comes to the same thing.. might as well just buy the damn thing and keep it as somthing you can keep forever.. like for our kids.. an asset? is that what it's called? Oh well...

I miss Daniel.. so much has happened.. So much I want to tell him.. everytime there's something really important.. I never get around to talking to him when I reall yneed to. I miss having him around.. sigh.. everything is too quiet... a few days left... trying to hang in there... sigh.

5th Day

2005-08-06T23:55:00.000+08:00

There's two things I know for sure.
She was sent here from heaven,
and she's daddy's little girl.
As I drop to my knees by her bed at night,
she talks to Jesus, and I close my eyes.
And I thank God for all of the joy in
my life, But most of all, for...

Butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer.
Stickin' little white flowers all up in her hair.
"Walk beside the pony
daddy, it's my first ride."
"I know the cake looks funny,
daddy, but I should try it."
Oh, with all that I've done wrong,
I must have done something right
To deserve a hug every morning,
And butterfly kisses at night.

Sweet sixteen today,
She's looking like her momma
a little more everyday.
One part woman, the other part girl.
To perfume and makeup,
from ribbons and curls.
Trying her wings out in a great
big world. But I remember...

Butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer.
Stickin' little white flowers all up in her hair.
"You know how much I love you daddy,
But if you don't mind,
I'm only going to kiss you on
the cheek this time."
With all that I've done wrong
I must have done something right.
To deserve her love every morning,
And butterfly kisses at night.

All the precious time
Like the wind, the years go by
Precious butterfly
Spread your wings and fly

She'll change her name today.
She'll make a promise,
and I'll give her away.
Standing in the bride room
just staring at her,
she asked me what I'm thinking,
and I said "I'm not sure,
I just feel like I'm losing my baby girl."
Then she leaned over....and gave me....

Butterfly kisses, with her mama there
Sticking little flowers all up in her hair
"Walk me down the aisle, daddy, it's just about time"
"Does my wedding gown look pretty, daddy?"
"Daddy,
don't cry."
With all that I've done wrong,
I must have done something right
To deserve her love every morning,
And butterfly kisses
I couldn't ask God for more, man, this is what love is
I know I've gotta let her go, but I'll always remember
Every hug in the morning, and butterfly kisses...

I know It's very early to think about this but.. I don't wanna change me name!! I don't wanna be given away!!! I wanna stay here!! Here's where I belong! I'm torn between the life I'm having and the life I want to have. I want both! BUT I CAN'T!! I'll Just have to choose... But I don't want to choose.. I like everything the way it is now... I don't want to leave anyone and I don't want anyone to leave me.. I don't want anything to change... I want everything to stay as it is.. I want NOTHING to change................

4th Day

2005-08-05T22:30:00.000+08:00

Today I stayed home... More talk of my brother getting married.. *StresS* But today.. It was slightly different... We were talking about MY wedding.. *faints* .. It's nerve wrecking... He's not even proposed yet.. from 5 years grace to 4 years. Now I'm left with 2 years to establish myself as much as I can after which Dan and I are getting married. It's finally happening.. I feel sad I have to leave my parents but living with Daniel.. the idea of having to split when we go home is very tempting. My parents approve.. I wonder if his parents would. He IS after all the only one in the family who brings in the baccon. Are they ready for it? What if they can't get along with my parents? What if Dan can't convert? Suddenly all of this happening way tooo fast and is becoming an unplesent experience.

Watched a show on tv today. It was prom night. The atmostphere romantic.. the people; beautiful and the music perfect. Hero walks to heroin, extends his hand and says.. "May I have this dance..?" Heroin replies.. "I thought you'd never ask." He held her close and swayed to the music. She closed her eyes and rested her head on his shoulder. She was safe. I wish that would happen to me. Dan's Romantic yea.. but.. he's not that smooth.. you know.. sweep you off your feet kinda leave u breathless effect.. is missing. =( Still.. I love him the way he is.. unknowing..unsuspecting romantic.. Sigh.. When are you coming home..... .

3rd Day

2005-08-04T23:29:00.000+08:00

All this talk of getting married in the house is making me very nervous. I some how know that I will be marrying Dan.. but what I'm afraid of is if my parents would let me and IF our parents can get along.. It's going to be massive... his side.. my side.. the only thing i'm nervous of is his parents meeting mine. I hope they just leave each other alone... sigh... Thinking about this is making me shake. At the moment.. the only consolation I have is that I will be marrying the man I love.

Other than that.. I had one general tidy and one full groom.. no.7 clip down.. After work.. went to get some stuff fo mum.. thn started walking in a straight line until i was interrupted my nature.. I went to the loo.. lost water... had to replace it.. Went to 7-11 next to kopitiam. BIG MISTAKE was approached by some black guy.. and he stole one of my cigs!!!! GRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!! Franklin... urgh.. *shudder*.. Ran for my life.. later had a kitten for company some where in bugis and ended up at the Esplanade.

I miss dan....

2nd Day

2005-08-03T23:15:00.000+08:00

Came Home today.. Never felt so alone. Sigh... Work was alright.. Having a headache... Have to get Cigs tomorrow... Probably will sit near fullerton and read after work... sigh... I miss him... you know.. I never thought I'd be this attached to anyone.. Hmmm... I guess I am really very spoilt... Well he's the one who spoilt me... *bleah* I can get away with anything with him... Oooh I love him so much... I don't know what I'd do without him.

1st Day

2005-08-02T23:10:00.000+08:00

Dan left this morning... Missing him alrready... We'd be together around this time of the day.. It's weird to be alone.... Went to Vanessa's place... wanted to swim but ness did not want to.. so we skipped... sigh... everytime i go there i bring the rain... rain... was really bad weather.. hope he's doing okay... sigh... good night love... missing you already.

Got me a medal man...

2005-07-26T20:41:00.000+08:00

Recieved my medal for my participation in Ops Flying Eagle earlier this year.

Cool huh?

Probably the first of many medals to come. Hopefully I'll get to go for Ops Blue Orchid III next year. 4 months at sea in the Gulf. That'll be a very good experience for me.

The Decline of Heavy Metal in Singapore????

2005-07-24T09:30:00.000+08:00

Zombie Rock Bar is now known as Zombie Dance Bar. What the hell is happening? First it was Zappa's, now Zombie. Zombie was the only place I knew off where I could actually go in, have a beer and headbang without people thinking I'm nuts. Unlike most other rock bars which played mainly rock stuff, Zombie actually played videos by bands such as King Diamond, Helloween and Dio. And the music included really heavy offerings such as Pantera, Iced Earth, Slayer, Metallica and others. Truly a great place to be. Fucking pisses me off that it plays R&B now.

R&B. Yeah right. Fucking bunch of morons dressed up in oversized tracksuits talking about how much they want money, because it attracts women and other shit. Yeah fuck you morons. And then you got all the other idiots who think by dressing like one of those rappers that they're black. Looking fucking stupid with the large chains hanging from their necks and reaching their crotches. Even more stupid are the hairstyles. People condemn metal, saying that the subject metal is generically 'evil' - Satan worship, witchcraft, warfare, Nazism, rebellion, suicide. But that's not all. There are bands out there that have entire albums which tell a story or are inspired by some great piece of literature. And there are songs that reflect on the current state of world affairs. In any case, I'd rather be listening to this kind of subject matter rather than listening to a bunch of fucking morons telling me how good it is to be a pimp.

Metal is going back to the underground, like how it used to be. Yeah, there's a few great bands that made it big and almost can be considered mainstream - Metallica, Iron Maiden, Dream Theater, Megadeth - but the majority of the bands are still lying underground, undetected by mainstream radar. Which is good news as we can sieve out who's really into metal for the music and who's into metal because it looks cool to be in leather and jeans and singing about Satan. In any case, clowns like that won't last a minute in the mosh pit, where we have our friendly violent fun for all.

Life goes on...

2005-07-23T10:27:00.000+08:00

Recently there's been huge public outcry over a lot of things. The NKF issue, London bombings, fare hikes and all that. But still, life goes on. The thing is about Singaporeans is that the people are generally passive. People will bitch, complain and moan about all these things, but in the end, nothing is done. This happens every day.

When it became public that the NKF CEO earns $600K per annum, people were baying for his blood. The logic was simple. How could a chairty organisation use public funds to pay its CEO such an astronomical salary (relatively speaking). Quite frankly. I don't give a damn. I don't even donate to the bloody NKF to begin. Most of donations go to the SPCA - which I think is THE ONLY organisation deserving of my funds. If you ask me why, I'll tell you that animals are more grateful than human beings. And I know damn well the problems the SPCA has to face.

As it is the SPCA is getting a lot of flak due to the fact that they DO put down animals. But in recent months all I hear is that the SPCA puts down most of the animals that it rescues. To the people who started these malicious lies, I have only one thing to say. A VERY BIG FUCK YOU TO YOU MOTHERFUCKING BASTARDS. I personally don't really like the idea of putting down animals, but I believe that its more humane to put down an animal that is suffering immense pain if it were to stay alive. I was forced to put down my beloved Golden Retriever, Copper. And I realised that it would be better for him to be put down as the dog was suffering immense pain after being wounded in the tail. Thankfully, the dog died as we brought him out for his last walk to the SPCA to be put down.

And we have some 'animal welfare groups' (I'm not going to border naming these groups here) who claim that they keep the animals until they die of a natural death. These groups claim that the SPCA puts down dogs because they get too many. Which is actually pretty stupid. Yes, the present pound may be smaller compared to these other groups' farmway premises, but that doesn't mean that dogs are put down indiscriminately. I for one know that sometimes dogs get adopted there pretty fast. There's been a number of times when I've been told that there's a new Retriever of Husky at the pound and when I get there the next day, the fellow is already pending adoption. Which means a pretty high turnover rate.

However, they are cases where putting down an animal is more humane than trying to keep the animal alive. Take for example Ginger. Ginger was that male cat that made the void deck of Joanne's block his home. One day while sending her home, we were both shocked to see Ginger n a very terrible condition. His skin was clinging to his bones, his eyes were covered in pus and he couldn't walk. We called the SPCA to pick him up. We did this knowing that he may have to be put down if his injuries were serious. And indeed, his injuries were very serious. Despite the fact that it was very sad to hear that he was put down, we felt that it was for the best.

So after all of that, what's the connection you ask. Well, you can condemn an organisation for some of its practices, but remember, there's some people from the general public who have benefited from the organisation's timely intervention in their lives.

IPPT hell again...

2005-07-19T05:40:00.000+08:00

Its back to the same dour regime of IPPT again. I managed to clear mine last year, but this year I'm going to have a problem. I've been putting off exercise for a long time now. I guess now's the perfect time to start training - although it may be too late - for the damn test. What I don't understand is how they tag IPPT to your performance, meaning if you work your ass off but fail your IPPT, you'll be ranked lower than the guy who slacks but manages to get Silver for his IPPT.

Not only that, there's the Standing Broad Jump (SBJ) station.Passing this station boils down more to technique than on using actual lower body strength. I don't understand why its part of the test. What's worse is the number of guys who have actually injured themselves in the process of either training for or doing the actual SBJ. And most of these injuries are back injuries which is quite serious. I have friends who have gotten suspected slip discs while training for their SBJ.

But all this boils down to the fact that there's an enormous amount of pressure to pass the IPPT from the management. And we can't do much about this and bite the bit and carry on trying. As for me, after tasting the success of passing last year, I'm going to go all out with training for my IPPT. Besides, I need to lose weight anyways. \m/

Back with a Vengeance...

2005-07-16T00:50:00.000+08:00

YES!!! My internet connection is back. Finally after 2 freaking months without being able to do a LOT of things. Feels good to be able to check up on football results and e-mail without having to use someone else's computer. Nothing much happening except for the fact that I may be deployed to the Gulf next year. That'll be pretty interesting. Anyways, as I write this, I'm getting really pissed of at my friend who's coming and going offline every 5 minutes. Fix that damn internet connection dude.

The weekend is almost here...

2005-07-15T02:16:00.000+08:00

The weekend is almost here... Barko's owners have not called me. I guess they're keeping him. Happy endings are always nice to hear. Maybe I'm not good enough... Maybe they think i'm still too young... sigh... it's not even friday and I'm so nervous. Sigh... I guess I'll find out tomorrow. I hope i get him.. I really do.. I'll make him a show dog. He'll be strong.. and loved by all.... Whatif i don't get him.. what ill i do..? I guess I'll have to continue looking for a companion.. sigh... I'm nervous.... but i don't know why....

Is it finally happening????

2005-07-12T16:07:00.000+08:00

I got this E-mail from my friend today... I think.. I've found him.. hmmm...

>Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when
>you hang up on him, who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for
>the guy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world
>when you are in your sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends,
>Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about
>you and how lucky he is to have you. Wait for the one who turns to his
>friends and says, "...that's her."

Also.. An update on the doggy situation. I've met a really nice family. And It's breaking my heart that I'd have to part children form beloved pet. Also.. I bet the pup will miss his pack.. He's going to be so confused.. The daughter.. it's amazing how much dedication a 9 year old has to her beloved pet.. Barko is super well behaved and he's just.. he's so smart.. It's amazing how well he behaves and how some of the other groomers have so much trouble with cockers.. Anyway.. he's very obedient... I'm sure everyone is going to love him... my brother is going to be so thrilled!! Heeheehehehe!! Daniel and I can bring him to the park every evening and relax there instead of going to town and wasting time.. There we can meet more dog people.. and I'll finally be able to play ball with a dog of my own.

Well.. That's if they pick me.. I'm not going to keep my hopes up... I trust they will do what is good for Barko even if they don't give him to me. =)

Check this out....

2005-07-08T17:44:00.000+08:00

This is really funny... It's called The creatures in my head.com IT's sooooo cute!!!!
Go check it out... http://www.creaturesinmyhead.com/

Very well said...

2005-07-08T12:32:00.000+08:00

Do bring a dog into your life, if you want...

* a companion who asks no questions, makes no judgements
* someone who loves you regardless of who you are, what you do or how much money you have in the bank
* to come home to a presence that immediately fills the room with love and devotion when you walk through the door
* to live a life that is mindful while being minded, loving while being loved, and caring while being cared for

I can't explain my urge to have a dog in a better way. I found this on the internet.. and.. I think.. I need a dog.

Someone end my misery...

2005-07-07T01:32:00.000+08:00

Okay... the previous post was weird. I don't really know why I wrote it or where it came from.

Anyway... Who wants to jump right in the middle of this brood??? I hope i'm not the only crazy one. Someone please end my misery and just kill me. I WANT to have a dog. I want the company so bad.. I'd beg steal or even kill just to have one. It's driving me crazy. EverydayI see owners come in with their pretious pooches.. expecially the big ones... And when it's time to go home.. They're just so happy to see their owners.. I want to feel that love... to be loved unconditionally.

My cat is killing me. She's so... I don't know.. I love her yes.. but.. she's so... non responsive... she only comes to us when she wants food..It's so annoying.. like we're only here to serve her. Picture this..

me : *throws small rubber ball her way*
cat : *...*
mom : why you throwing a ball at her???
me : Sorry.. I forgot.... she's not a dog.

There's nothing I can do with her..When I had Gracie.. I could bring her for a walk.. I could play ball with her.. she would sit with me.. she wants to be with me.. Where else can u get company like that ??? I'm not going to wait till I get my own home.. Think abt it.. secret boyfriend.. do u think i'd get married soon ??? Also when will i have a dog ?? When my parents are old and can't look after them selfs?? I'll never have time for a dog at that rate.. I want one now!!!! I Can't go on.. I have a leash.. i have a doggy bed.. I have a water bowl.. but i have no dog. Am I not good enough??? It's not fair!! people everyday kids.. they get dogs.. puppoes just because they're cute... and afew months down the road.. they get rid of it.. abandon it... why case they can't cope.. here i am.. willing to give mylife to it.. and I don't get one!? This is madness...

Someone please.. end my misery... I miss my Grace.. where is she?? Does she still think of me ?? does she miss me?? Does she hateme for what I did to her? I bet she does.. maybe I shouldn't have a dog after all... I'm not good enough.

Faith

2005-07-07T00:18:00.000+08:00

What is faith ?

You can't touch it.. You can't smell it.. You can't taste it.. Okay so
maybe sometimes you can see it through others.. But how often do we feel it?

I guess for some of us.. Its there.. we just know it is.. this blind belive thats it's there and some how everything will turn out fine. We can't really put it into words.

What are we beliving in? Is it an explanation for things we can't understand? Will it still be there till the end of time? What will we belive in? Our selfs? Other People perhaps? Or in God? Or did we create him too in effort to hide what we can't explain.. that he has a reason.. something pre planned for us.. not yet clear for us to see.

We're born.. we live life... then we fade away. Our job is to figure out how to spend the time that is given to us. Will we make our dreams come true before the end? We hope we do. Some already know it won't come true.. a sort of negative faith.. some work hard in the hope that they can try to make it come true.. a positive kind of faith.

Faith.. 5 alphabets... something most of can't really describe. I guess it all depends on where or in whome we put it. As for me? In god I trust.

If we do not have faith in ourselfs who then would have faith in us?

I'm talking gibberish. Excuse me while I re format my brain.

Someone Please Deflate Me!!!

2005-07-02T11:53:00.000+08:00

I am so filled with air, I feel like a helium balloon floating around my house! >.<: Made the mistake of eating mee pok in a dark gloomy hawker center in chinatown. Guess the feeling is mutual. I'm never going back there.

Well.. I was in outram before that because I went for my very first full-time job interview! Yess.. To be a professional dog groomer. 10 hours of every day, 6 days of every week for the rest of my life until I die. ( I make it sound so bad! ) Pay ?? 1.5k If they like my work.. 2.2k(WOOOHOOOO!!!!) I'll be Saving money!! Getting my own car.. And buying my own diamonds in no time!!! WeEeE~** I'll have my very own shop.. that will become a franchise!!! ok that's way to far.. but for now...2.2k is alot of money..well atleast for me. I guess I'll have to manage finances properly from now on.

Anyway it's way past bedtime.. I'm feeling much better.. I'm gonna go sleep now. Night!

Does this look Professional ?

2005-06-24T18:54:00.000+08:00

Hmmm..... The e-mail is real ah.. hehehe I hav eone fro Grooming too... So prpoud of it! weee~*

~Bintan~

2005-06-21T00:58:00.000+08:00

Yes.. The pictures are finally up...
Bintan.... Before we got there... it was raining so heavily... I was thinking my beach vacation will be spoilt... thn when I looked out the window through the rain.. I saw this....

When I got there the weather improoved and everything was fine. =)

From the beach.. here is where I lived for a whole week.

We had our own pool...

And this is what the view is like from where I lived.

Same tree.. just the sunset..

Tiny marine fishes like this one would swim around u near the shore.

This is a Sea cucumber.. chinese people eat this.. I don't see how they can.

Hermit crab... movin house i guess.

The toilet... Sigh.. I like the fishes.. Speaking of fishes....

My dad feeding the fishes in the lobby. He never forgets these fishes.. he claims they bring him good luck when it comes to the lottery.

And this is the view from the lobby.

okay I'm sleepy.. tomorrow I'll change the lay out... Night~*

Family Day @ the Zoo!

2005-06-20T23:54:00.001+08:00

Yes.. we spent father's day at the zoo...

My cousin with her new camera...

We have a few baby animals..

We have a baby Zebra too!

Apprently his one likes to play dead...

The giraffes are back!

The over weight lioness...

The elephants.. still a favourite.. they're so sweet natured.

The hippo on the left was nudging the one on the right out of the water.. he's a bully.. I swear!

The tigers at feeding time...

My dad likes to move it move it. ;P

Back Online...

2005-06-20T17:26:00.000+08:00

Hey people!!! I'm baccccck!! God.. look at this mess!! it's horrible!!! Ok here's the thing.. All my information has been wiped out.. please leave me a msg.. tag me on the tag board or whatever and leave me your address.. as u can see.. my links list isreally short.. i also miss reading your blogs too!! thanks ya'll... will upload the pictures of bintan and father's day later tonight. Love ya'll!

I'm funnily confused.... ;P

2005-06-06T20:23:00.000+08:00

I'm back at Vanessa's place and the thing is.. i made the biggest mistake asking Jamie how they first met.Next thing I knew... all kinds of stories; Edwardo.... sombreros... boleros... goodness.. germany.. spain.. mexico.... everything came out.. and I belived it cause Jamie.. can hold such a straight face while saying it.. it sucks to be so naivebolero... I just asked jamie how to spell naive. *sigh*

Anyway... Daniel left today... My cousin came home last night. Jaz went to Indonesia and Daniel went to the south china sea.. had something to do I guess.. was all excited.. Hmmm... I wonder what he'd say if he knows I'm gonna stay over at nessa's place..... I miss him.

I hate Bintan

2005-06-04T17:04:00.000+08:00

I HATE BINTAN!!!

I HATE NOT HAVING ANY INTERNET!!!

I HATE BEING BROKE!!!

ARGH!!!

By the way, my internet connection got caught due to unsettled payments to my ISP so yeah, won't be blogging for a while. A little update on things,

1. Thinking of getting a credit card. Don't know whether to get one in the first place.

2. Need new phone. Thinking of getting a black Motorola RAZR V3.

3. Need to save more cash. I don't know how I'm going to do that.

4. Need a new PC. Or at least reformat mine. Which spells the loss of 1400+ mp3s.

5. Need to start training seriously for IPPT. Having time to do that is going too e a real bitch though.

Not the end of this list. It goes on and on and on... Heaven and Hell!!! Oops! Got a little too carried away.

Halfway through to begining my life...

2005-05-28T21:15:00.000+08:00

Yes.. I call this this the point Halfway through to begining my life because I'm in the second half of school and i'm almost done. In about a month or so,I will have my first ever full time job. Some how it does not feel like a job. It feels like a past time.. I love doing and before I know it I'm already through the day. Is this what they mean by loving your job? Anyhow I can't wait to start.

I managed to have a proper conversation with the new student at school. She's from China and is in singapore to learn engresh. She's doing okay at school but she's really helpful. she does all the clean up before any of us can actually start. Oh well.. *shrugs* Anyway it's good for all of us. By the end of the day.. we're all too tired. Anyway there's not much to clean. It's just the disinfecting of every blade used and every surface occupied.. every corner of the room just incase we have illegal immigrants like ticks and flees or what ever. Oh!! and when a cat comes in.. goodness... Cat's fur is more fine than than any dog's normal fur.. so it gets in the most impossible places. oh well... It's a living.. I don't really mind.. cause i got used to living with a cat so grooming a cat is no problem at all.. It's just a few hours.

I'm at my cousin Jazmyn's place cause it's a sort of surprise birth day party for her husband; Jorn. He's hit the 30s but he looks like he's in his 20s. It's a crime I tell you. ;P

I miss using the internet. I feel so handicapped. I need to find out how i can replace my ROM BIOS. If anyone knows. please do contact me. Thank you many many. Greatly appreciated.

Anyhow i have to go now.. can't hog his computer too long. It's his office.. Jorn's like a brother to me.. he's way cool! He likes Dream Theatre So i got him a Dream theatre t-shirt. hehe.. I think he kinda likes it.. hehehe~~ he also likes the CD Daniel choose for him. Will probably ask him to go jamming oneday with the boys.. He'd probably have fun! ;D Who knows...

Till i write again.. Sigh~*

Back from bintan........

2005-05-22T21:24:00.000+08:00

I am back from bintan. It's expensive. It's dead now.. because of the new visa implimntations... hence there's not much ang mohs around. My computer's ROM BIOS is in fected so i'm blogging from Vanessa's place. Will up load pictures of bintan soon. Sigh... Left my handphone in school.. so yea.. save money on handphone bill.

Speaking of Vanessa... She always has like a ball of a time when she goes out. I'm at her place.. and she filled me in on what she was up to while i was away. I really wish i would have that much fun when i go out clubbing... She meets hot people.. no... MODELS!!!! Gets dragged to vip rooms... It's just not fair~~~~~~~!! *SOB*

Anyway.. it's almost time to go... Vanessa cooks the best Indo mee man... *Drools* I go eat Indo mee thn go home... will blog some other time.. Toodles~!

I need a break...

2005-05-13T00:35:00.000+08:00

Been very tired lately.. very mentally and emotionally drained due to some events in my life... It's been so long since I've written.. here's just so much to say. To sum it all up.. Gracy's with her new family... I'mg going to bintan on monday.. Daniel will be stuck in singapore.. I'll be without my computer for about 5 days... I'm gonna die.

Played lan with the boys... I went to daniel's house.. I've got a book to bring with me to bintan... I have to come up with games for the oldies.... Have school on Saturday and Sunday...

I have dog walking in a frew hours... but I'm just so sleepy!! Urgh.. oh well... I Finally have a bone for Whippy....

I have a mosquito bite on my ass and its itching so badly i've scratched it and made it sore.

Daniel and I are getting new rings... Hopefully before I leave for bintan.. Anyways.. I'm going to sleep...

Things to dotomorrow...

1. Get cap
2. Sunglasses
3. Toiletries
4. Plan Games

2005-05-03T10:35:00.000+08:00

ESCAPE

Feel no pain, but my life ain't easy
I know I'm my best friend
No one cares, but I'm so much stronger
I'll fight until the end

To escape from the true false world
Undamaged destiny
Can't get caught in the endless circle
Ring of stupidity

Out for my own, out to be free
One with my mind, they just can't see
No need to hear things that they say
Life's for my own, to live my own way

Rape my mind and destroy my feelings
Don't tell me what to do
I don't care now 'cause I'm on my side
And I can see through you

Feed my brain with your so-called standards
Who says that I ain't right?
Break away from your common fashion
See through your blurry sight

Out for my own, out to be free
One with my mind, they just can't see
No one to hear things that they say
Life's for my own, to live my own way

See them try to bring the hammer down
No damn chains can hold me to the ground

Life's for my own, to live my own way
Life's for my own, to live my own way

Remind me again why I signed on...

2005-05-03T09:42:00.000+08:00

Seriously, I think I was delusional when I put pen to paper on the contract that made me a slave to the government. I basically signed away 6 years of my life. And what have I gotten in return? Let's see... A knee problem that comes back every now and then to haunt me, a 5cm scar on my groin that serves as a reminder of a hernia problem, a case of eczema which I finally gotten rid off, a lot of missed anniversaries and birthdays, a lot of shelling and getting blamed for things that I didn't do.

Sure there's the perks, let's see... The pay, opportunity to go to other ports (I've only been to Tioman so far), erm... I can't think of anything else. The things is, the cons outweigh the perks. I've not been able to do a LOT of things all because I don't have the time. I've been trying to get my basic theory done but I simply don't have the time. I missed out on spending time with Joanne and my friends and family a lot of times due to sailing and duties. I just had to push away a gig all because the stupid schedule for this month won't allow time to jam even on weekends.

When I was going for the brainwashing, oops I meant recruitment talks, I was told that I'll be able to apply the knowledge that I gained after completing my poly diploma at work. So far I've only applied this to making simple signage and typing. I've not done any actual defect rectification. In fact, whenever a problem occurs, we narrow down the cause and then call the base techs to fix it. And what makes all of this worse is that at the end of 6 years, I have ZERO experience.

But the thing that really makes me pissed is how I'm a scapegoat. I follow the instruction to the word, but when things go wrong, its my fault. Before we came alongside after the mission to Meulaboh, I was told to get a crowbar by my IC to open up this bar so that we can rest the gangway on it. After I came back with the crowbar, we were still having problems taking it out. That's when another IC who was helping us suggested that we use a bow hook. Then my IC tries to make it look like its my fault by saying that he told me to get a bow hook instead of a crowbar. Good thing was that my CO was there and immediately corrected him. This is the same guy who recently screwed me upside down because the carabina clips that I bought and the chain that I prepared for the gangway got missing when it was kept in his store. The thing that "made him pissed" was that I didn't have responsibilty for my own things. What the fuck is he trying to do? He's in charge of the bloody store, and the things went missing in there, but its my fault for keeping it there.

Now there's a possibility that I may have to cancel my trip to Bintan due to "operational requirements". I applied for overseas leave from the 16th to 20th of this month at the beginning of April. Then at the end of last month that announced that we are tasked to sail during those very same dates. Now my officers are telling me that they may have to cancel my overseas leave despite the fact that everything's been planned out and booked. Then what's the point of giving 21 days of leave per year when it can cancelled at a moment's notice.

I'm just really pissed now... As it is, life really stinks.

Busy busy busy...

2005-05-02T15:17:00.000+08:00

Okay.. Here's what I've been up to since I last wrote.

I started School!!! It's fantastic.. I love it.. It's damn fun!! I'm gonna be rich doing what I do best!! WwwEeEee~~* We had a graduation ceremony for some girls.. so my principal thrw a barbecue... I borrowed mike's dog Pebbles since everyone had one.

Gave her a groom first... wanna see how she looks after the groom ???

She's so cute ain't she???

Any way.. the nextday..wenttoschoolas per normal.. friday.. It was Mike's Birthday.. yup.. Pebbles' dad's Birthday.

Vanessa And Olivia...

Maryanne and Shannon...

Kevin, Someone.. forgot his name.. and Stu...
We were at double O and yea.. I waskinda lost but every one was awsome..they were like big sisters and big brothers...No prizes for guessing what happened to mike. I went home early causeI had school on saturday morning...

Went to school the next morning... and after school... I brought home a puppY!!!! I love My Lil Gracy.. She's going to be so Big!! WEEeEeEe!~~~!!!

And this is my little Grace.. 3.5 to 4 months old. At thsi verymoment.. this is how she's sleeping.

So..Im sleepy.. So i'm going to sleep..nodding off.. hehehe.. night!!!

Screwed up

2005-05-02T01:18:00.000+08:00

The ship's routine for the month of May is really screwed up, we might as well just stay in the damned South China Sea until the 12th of June man. Sigh.

Joanne's got an adorable little puppy named Grace. Too bad her parents aren't too keen on keeping her because they're worried about the cat.

Came up with some lyrics while on duty the other day. Can really see that it was inspired by J.R.R. Tolkien's Lord of the Rings. Finished writing it in 10 minutes. Need to edit it though.

Wish list so far :

The Complete History of Middle-Earth
Nokia 6260 or the Black Motorola V3 RAZR
InCase iPod U2 Folio
50th Anniversary edition of The Lord of the Rings
The Limited Edition Lord Of The Rings Extended Edition Box Sets for all 3 movies
Metallica's Cunning Stunts, S&M, Live Shit: Binge and Purge DVDs
New pair of Levi's jeans
Those cool boots from Red Wing
Star Wars Trilogy, Indiana Jones Trilogy boxsets
Driving license and Land Rover Defender 110 Station Wagon

I swear life can really screw you up...

New gig???

2005-04-24T20:48:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was a pretty interesting day. Went jamming and we had a reasonably good session despite the lack of a vocalist for the most part of it. Hanif came up with a pretty interesting chord progression which I'll be trying to expand upon. My guitar's battery is almost dying so I had to ask man to help me change it. After jam I met Joanne and finally we managed to spend some time together on our 'anniversary'. Hard to believe its been 2 years and a month already. Spend the evening relaxing and listening to classic metal songs on my iPod at Mc's at Plaza Sing. Joanne is trying to come up with a list of songs that the band should play. Songs that would get an audience worked up for more and yet showcasing the talents of the band.

Speaking of the band, Zeek sms'd me saying thta he gave my name and contact number to Faisal and Roy from Dethmute. The latter two are organising a gig to promote the launch of Yakamashii's new album. Tentatively the gig will be held at the Substation at the end of June. If we do get the gig, there'll be a lot of excitement and stress on the band. We'll all definitely be excited at the prospect of playing live again but the stress will come in perfecting the songs to be played on the set. Ever since we played at the Idiosyncrasy gig in March 2003, there's always been the desire to play live again and show that the band is capable of much better stuff on stage. That gig will always be remembered for Man having stage fright and for my guitar going out of tune halfway through our cover of the "The Trooper". If we do get the gig, this time round the band will be really showing the potential that lies in each individual. Since that gig, we've been through lineup and instrument changes. Hanif has got a new guitar and effects, Mark and Ewan have been drafted in to replace Bull and Faz respectively, Man has gotten more exposure as a vocalist and has overcome the stage fright. As for myself, except for changing the pickup selector on my guitar, I've completed the modifications on my guitar and have gotten myself new effects.

At this point of time, I'm really broke. It doesn't help the fact that my parents are still asking me for more money despite the fact that I've already told them that I'm very tight after having to fork out an additional $500 for the boys' exam fees. I need at least $100 to pay a nominal amount to Singtel for my cellphone and internet bills, and more for transport and to actually live. Spoke to my aunt yesterday about all this and she was telling me that she actually blasted my mom about all this. She told my mom that the house can't be always depending on me. My aunt probably has sensed that Joanne and I want to get married and live out our lives together and she knows that once we do, I'll have to concentrate on running the day to day affairs of my own house. She lamented that she's not able to help me with the burdens that I face due the fact that she's not doing too well herself.

On to happier things. Dream Theater is releasing yet another album. Dream Theater's "OCTAVARIUM" out on June 7th, 2005! Check out that link. Demons & Wizards will be releasing another album (FINALLY!!!) Touched By The Crimson King, due on June 27, 2005. Rumours abound that Megadeth will be haing a world tour and might just stop over in Singapore but as usual, the words "budget problems" keep popping up.

Other than that, I'm pretty shocked to learn that reading about the charge of Rohan in Return of the King can move me to tears just as easily as wacthing it in the movies.

2 years and a month

2005-04-23T01:45:00.000+08:00

Yes... 2 years and a month and finally I can spend the day with Joanne. Or at least the night as Joanne will be in school until 1630. I'll be jamming at 1500, although I don't know if I'll make it through since I'm down with the flu and a bloody pimple in my right lower eyelid. Fucking thing hurts like hell. Will be on duty tomorrow, which sucks as usual. Hopefully I'll have my half day off on Monday. Sailing on Thursday. Will be back on Friday night, which sucks as I'm on duty on Thursday. Fucked up routine.

Anyways, I hate being sick. Someone please shoot me in the head and put me out of this misery...

Lost...

2005-04-14T03:37:00.000+08:00

I got a job... yeah.. decided that being another burden to Daniel is not exactly what a girlfriend should do. I'll be working there and I'll probably have some money to share with Daniel.

I'm afraid of getting a job. I feel weird. I feel as if I'm going to be bound to responsibility... I know I have to be responsible at one point in my life.. but I'm afraid of change.. I'm also afraid I'll screw up at work. I start at 10.40 in the morning.. I can't go dog wlaking!! *SOB* Tomorrow... I have to take pictures of a few dogs for the SPCA website and it has to be up by the friday...hmm... perhaps after work I can do it. I think i Really have to draw up a time table.

I'm also starting school next tuesday... I'm afraid that I won't be good at it.. If I screw this up too.. what then will I do ????? I wanna be the best.. everryone is telling me I'll be the best.. I will do really well.. They can see me running my own place... Sigh.. I just wanna be with Daniel.. and my family and I want everything to nice and happy.. I'm afraid.. very afried of the life that is to come. I will have 3 things to juggle... Dog walking... Work and school.... I think I will call my teacher and ask him when my school days are.. thn I'll draw up a time table.. I'm just afraid I won't beable to spend time with my loved ones.. Daniel and My mom and dad... I guess I have to grow up.. I guess my days of being happy and not caring abt much has got to end.. I have to work. I have to support my self...

After typing so much I feel like I've still not expressed my self... Something is wrong... I mean... I wanna be free but I wanna put my time to good use.. I wanna do what I want.. but if I do what I want.. I can't be putting my time to good use.. But If doing what I want is putting my time to good use... Thn.. I'd be wasting my time.. Is doing what I what wasting my time? Am I putting my time to good use?? Or am I just useless??????

Broke... yet again...

2005-04-13T23:29:00.000+08:00

Its not even a week since I got my pay for the month of April and I'm already broke. "Why?" you may ask.

Simple.

I'm the sole breadwinner in my household.

I'm not even going to describe my house as a family, because its simply disfunctional. I hate my dad. I'm pissed with my mom and I'm sorely disappointed with my brothers. This month I had to fork out $500 extra just to pay for their exam fees. I think I'm wasting my money on one of them. My youngest brother is a fucking trendwhore. He's more interesting in keeping up with the mats that he hangs out with rather than in keeping up with his schoolwork. Just the other day, he told me that doesn't wish to continue his tuition with SINDA. Why? He's too tired. To hell with him. Its his future after all. You can bring to a horse to water, but you can't force the horse to drink. That's what I've been doing. I've been emphasising the need for the 2 of them to do well in their studies. Alex, the elder of the two seems to taking the advice that I gave. Andrew on the other hand, would rather dress up and hang around those stupid mats that he calls friends. I've never met a more idiotic bunch of kids in my life. Keeping up with the latest trends is more important to him than doing well in his exams. My dad doesn't seem to be bothered with Andrew. After all, its not his money that's being spent on Andrew's education.

I have given Andrew one ultimatum, if he doesn't do well for his O's, he'll have to pay me back the $350 that I shelled out to pay for his exam fees. As it is, he almost got retained this year. TUrns out that he was not promoted to Sec 4, but he was advanced. Which means that if he doesn't do well, he'll be thrown back to Sec 3. Fucking moron. I never had to face this problem. Talked to him time and time again about the importances of sacrifices during this crucial year and he still won't fucking get it into that thick skull of his.

On the part of my parents, I think they're IDIOTS. My dad couldn't be bothered to ask me to help with my brother's exam fees but he can have the cheek to ask me to pass him some money so that he bring some motherfucking Indons around town. My mom religiously goes to Batam every weekend so that she can 'teach' the people there, leaving the 2 boys at home to do all the housework. My aunts and uncles are all asking what's wrong with my mom as she's been losing a lot of weight and looks terrible now. I'm fucking pissed. I just want to get out of this shithole and get my own place. Settling down now seems very tempting as I know that I wouldn't have to support the house once I get my own place.

And what do I get for all my trouble of helping support this ungrateful family? A lecture every month on the benefits of saving money and good finance management. I only have this to say,

FUCK YOU!!! GO AND GET A FUCKING JOB SO THAT I WON'T HAVE TO BEAR THIS FUCKING BURDEN!!! ITS AFFECTING ME IN EVERYTHING I DO MOTHERFUCKER!!!

2005-04-09T00:49:00.000+08:00

Our Holy Father John Paul II
1978 - 2005

"Have no fear of moving into the unknown. Simply step out fearlessly knowing that I am with you, therefore no harm can befall you; all is very, very well. Do this in complete faith and confidence."

-Pope John Paul II

Sick again....

2005-04-03T18:35:00.000+08:00

I'm sick. I want to go to the hospital.. but I can't. Wish my parents would bring me. Someone is getting on my nerves. Makes me just wanna disappear. Hanif and Zaa told me to get well soon. Perticularly Hanif.. I was suprised. Man too. The amount of bile.. scary. Lucky man was there.. he knew what to do.. I feel like eating a rendang burger. Hmmm... Maybe baby will get me one later. I love him so much.. He takes such good care of me.. I know I can always rely on him. I'd do anything for him and he would do the same for me. I miss Vanessa. I start school on the 19th. I wanna go bintan at the same time i don't wanna be aprat from Daniel. My joints ache.. i have to go lie down. Sigh~*

Your Hidden Power Is Light
Angel

You have a happy yes quite soul. You keep
somethings to yourself and like to be alone but
don't mind showing your bright side to your
friends. You find that hell is the worst of all
scince your an angl from heavan. You use your
powers for the forces of good to protect gods
creatures.

Gem Stone: Canary Diamond, Eye
Color:Golden,Hair Color:Blonde that
goes to your shoulders

Quote:In my field of paper flowers
And candy clouds of lulaby
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple sky fly over me

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Ideas for a HEAVYMETAL Star Wars

2005-04-03T13:43:00.000+08:00

1) Darth Tyrannus and the members of the Confederacy of Independant Systems singing along to Arch Enemy's "We Will Rise"

2) Han Solo, Leia Organa, Luke Skywalker and other members of the rebellion singing along to Sodom's "I'm a Rebel"

3) Chewbacca and Han Solo duet - Of Wookie and Man

4) Darth Vader and the Emperor duet - Princes of The Universe

5) Padme Amidala singing "Always Somewhere" everytime Anakin goes to war

6) Iron Maiden's "Aces High" plays in the background during the starfighter battle scenes

7) Theme music for the Clone Troopers and Stormtroopers - The Trooper

8) Exodus' "Bonded by Blood" playing in the background when Vader reveals that he is Luke's dad

9) Rebel Alliance's Theme song - Gammaray's "Dethrone Tyranny"

10) The Emperor humming along to Metallica's "Am I Evil?"

11) Bounty Hunter theme song - Testament's "Low"

And yes... I came up with this all by myself... hahaha

2005-03-30T14:27:00.000+08:00

Took it of a friend's Site... It's just for fun... Happy reading. =)

You're going to the moon! What did you forget to pack?
my camera

Chicken monkey shoes?
Don't Do any Climbing.

Your people want to make a statue in your honor. What will it be made out of and what victory will it commemorate?
Me stepping on the face of a scientist commemorates my triumph over animal testing and death to all abusers of animals

You've just inherited a manufacturing plant that specializes in plastics. What are you going to make?
mouth straps to cover any mungen's yapping mouth.

Your hand has been replaced by a rubber stamp. What does it say?
fuck you

You forgot your mom's birthday! What can you make out of super glue and olive pits?
a flower arrangement.

You moved the pot before the coffee stopped brewing. Do you smell the mountains or the burro?
eh??

Your new pajamas have duckies on them. Why did you switch from choo-choos?
cause choo-choos are for boys.... ;P

What would you name your ballet inspired by the sight of children leaping through a garden sprinkler?
sprinkle tots

You're trapped in a well with a goat and a slinky. Describe how you will escape. i will take out my cell and ask my daddy to come pick me and mr. goat.

You've been entered in a shadow puppet contest. What's your best pose?
,.|..

Do you believe that forks are evolved from spoons?
no

Your superpower is that you smell like dandelions whenever someone lies. How will you maintain your secret identity?
work at the local florist... or at a place like body shop.

Your Brain is 60.00% Female, 40.00% Male

Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female

You are both sensitive and savvy

Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed

But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve

What Gender Is Your Brain?

hmmm..

2005-03-30T14:04:00.000+08:00

Oh hey!! the rining is gone!!! YEAH!!!!! I can hear normally now!! WEeEeEe~~**

Tomorrow will be adding some pictrued from the pound... 10 PUPPIES!!!! Just running around all over the place.. can u imagine that?! *GriNz* Picking up one... you can feel pure love and innocence in your arms... It was... beyound words...

I was holding Life in my arms...

Busy Busy Easter!!! ;D

2005-03-29T00:50:00.000+08:00

Today is our blog's 1st birthday.. We know no one reads it much but hell.. It's just for fun. And to the few that do read... Thanks a bunch!!! ;D You guys are the sweetest!

So here's what we've been up to...

Before that.. News Flash... 8.2 on the richtor scale.. undersea earth quake.. Sigh.. just when I decided to travel..to Phuket fo all places... sigh.

As I was saying...

We went to the zoo!!! ;D

It was really early in the morning so most of them(the animals) were sleeping.

This is Norman.. I call him Normie.. He's a King Snake.. Ain't he the sweetest lil thing?!?!? Awwww~~~*

These buggers are always in the way... Gently nudged this one to the side.. hehe!~*

My baby Never Fails to make me laugh... hehehehe~* This is the new enclosure for the tigers! =)

The main attraction... Basking in the mid day sun..

Wore a sari to Easter mass.. Felt like a tree for a while.. Guess you can tell why.. ;P

OOooHH!!! And my ears are still ringing from Gods of Metal.. that was at Paradigme.

It's nice to see that everyone had fun..

So yea.. that's what we've been up to.
Sleepy...~~*

Back... and dead tired...

2005-03-25T11:01:00.000+08:00

Death be not proud, though some have called thee mighty and dreadful...

A fucking cool way to start off a song huh? Yeah, was listening to Children of Bodom during the last sailing. Fucking pissed off hearing techno everytime I go to the galley to grab a meal. yesterday's sailing was tiring as anything. This time round, my department was really stretched due to the firing and some other training for myself and my WCS1. Whatever it is, I can only say one thing, the ship needs more seamen. 8 guys trot the lookout/helms sea watch. Which means if someone happens to be on leave and the ship has has to sail, all the lookouts will suffer. Talk about screwed huh? Then there's the ops side of it. Having so few seaman means that when it comes to ops, we'll be overworked. And last but not least, QM duties. Running 1 in 4 right now. Its kind of difficult to take leave, and if the ship continues to attach seamen to other ships, we can drop to 1 in 3 anytime which is HELL.

Anyway, got news that Joanne found the Evenstar pendant. Which is a huge relief. Finally created a new playlist on my iPod. Took me a while due to amount of work that I have to do. Am broke again and my idiot father intends to play host to a bunch of Indons during the weekend and he can actualy ask me for cash to bring them around town. What the fuck does he think I am? A fucking ATM? In the first place, I'm fucking pissed with the fact that I'm the one working my ass off and that I have to give money to the house and he can still ask for a 'loan' every now and then. I wouldn't mind but then the question comes up, he doesn't work so how the fuck is he going to back a cent? Well... fuck the motherfucking Indons, I'm not going to give 2 shits about them while they're here. I don't fucking bother to even stop to talk to them. I just go about doing my own things and then leave the house. Fuck them. Tell them to go back to their backward little island and fucking rot there. I'm not in the mood to entertain a bunch of people who have money and would like to save their buck by crashing at someone's house. And I'm not talking talking about one person, I talking about a 5 member family. No matter how many of the motherfuckers come around, I will not allow them to have my dungeon. Its MINE!!! Imagine, my parents sleeping on the floor in my brothers' room while the Indons sleep in theirs. And I sleep all alone with my privacy untouched in my dungeon. Too fucking bad motherfuckers...

Tonight I can sleep....

2005-03-25T00:56:00.000+08:00

My 23rd of March 2005

2005-03-23T23:53:00.000+08:00

My second anniversary with Daniel today.. feels like yesterday.. so much has happened.. so much we've grown.. my... how we have grown.. changes have come and gone but the bond between us has remained constant.

We had a quiet lunch and spent the day quietly in tpy and over the internet.. if it was any other month it would have been fine... but it was march... sigh.. how long I waited.

I cut my hair. I chopped it all off...

I'm worried abt a friend.. two infact.

I've lost my evenstar pendent.

I'm a gonner.

I want my baby.

2 wonderful years...

2005-03-23T17:33:00.000+08:00

Today I celebrate 2 years of being together with Joanne. Its been a wonderful 2 years with a lots of ups and downs. 2 years. Still seems like yesterday that I asked her. Sigh... Its just too fucking bad that I have to sail off in another 4+ hours for a stupid live firing. Wanted so badly to spend time with her today. Sucks to be on board sometimes. In any case, the past 2 years with her have had a profound impact on me.

So profound, I'm at a loss for words...

But whatever it is, my feelings for Joanne have only grown stronger and I know that no matter what, I'm going to be with her through thick and thin. I love you Joanne...

After a long weekend with out you...

2005-03-20T02:07:00.000+08:00

Baby.. this is for you.

Thank you! MusicVideoCodes.com

The things you do when you're bored...

2005-03-18T14:32:00.000+08:00

click here to watch what we did cause we were bored...
Hehehe....

Thus; With a kiss I Die.

2005-03-14T02:18:00.000+08:00

ARRRRGH!!!

2005-03-11T00:19:00.000+08:00

I'm damn fed up. I may not be able to spend my 2nd anniversary with Joanne. Instead, I'll be on my way for a live firing exercise. This really sucks as now the leave that I took for the 23rd has to be cancelled. I still can go on leave on the 22nd. Looks like I'll have to spend my anniversary with her one day before. Fucking pissed off man. And I mean really fucking pissed off.

Draw...

2005-03-06T02:44:00.000+08:00

Sigh... Man Utd drew their game with Crystal Palace, opening the gap between them and Chelski. Sigh. What a waste. They were laying siege to the Palace goal in the 2nd half, but nothing happened. The finishing touch was not there. van Nistelrooy was still not fully match fit and missed loads of chances to score. Roy Keane was adjudged wrongly to be offside when he had a great chance to score in the first half and the ref failed to award a penalty. Sigh. Everything seems to be going wrong for United now. Hope that they come out from it.

My eye hurts...

I got duty on Monday...

This sucks...

hmmm.....

2005-03-06T01:32:00.000+08:00

Today was an eventful day.. let's see...I met Dan at Toa Payoh MRT station..

...and headed to to Peninsular... we bumped into Boba Fett

his friend Nazgul

and Darth Vader seemed to be following close behind..

it was a pretty entertaining day... hehehehehehhehe~* Faz.. so that you know.. we were thinking of you... ;P

Sunshine after the rain ...

2005-03-05T13:05:00.000+08:00

He's back!! My baby's back!! Life's back to normal!!! Weee!! This month it'll be 2 years.. 2 wonderful years of fun.. Laughter.. Holidays.. Expensive gifts.. Memorable moments and lessons learnt. It's not been long but it feels like forever already... But it only feels like yesterday that we first met. Everyday is a new experience... Thank you for your unconditional love... Your kindness.. Care... And most of all.. For having patience with me. I'm blessed and I hope you feel the same.

I LOVE YOU BABY!!!!!

Women shouldn't join the Navy...

2005-03-04T18:37:00.000+08:00

Women should NOT join the Navy. Period. I'm fucking pissed with the women on board. Always thinking that they're always roght and that they're equals. Always wanting to be treated like equals. But when it comes to doing the hard work like seamanship, they want out. Fuck them and their demands for equality. If you want to demand that you get the same pay and treatment that the guys get, you fucking damn well better be able to do what we do. Its fucking annoying when you have to do duty with a female POOD. When it comes to certain ops, she won't be able to do anything because she probably only did it during her OJT term and then stopped doing it later on by stating that she can't because she's a women. I once had to stand in as a Q-Deck POIC all because the POOD was a woman and had no idea how to downslack the lines using the right tension and technique. And I was just a corporal back then. What the fuck man?!

Some kind of hope ...

2005-03-01T23:41:00.000+08:00

Dan's called!! Hope at last. Maybe I can pull through this... now that he's somewhat here... but he's still so busy.. I still won't be seeing him often though. He's going off again.. for another 3 days.. not counting his days that he has duty. Life sucks. I hope I start work soon.. I need to get away.. I feel like running.. but I have no where to go... Even if I did have somewhere to go I wouldn't cause I have no guts to. Where can I go to find peace of mind??? I'd give anything to have things the way they were... I know that there's something I have to learn from all this.. but what ??? As of now.. I'm just too tired.. too mentally drained to think.

Endless Pain

2005-02-28T23:52:00.000+08:00

Can someone please help fix this or can someone just end it for good please ? I've Had Enough. I Can't Handle this on my own no more. I've had enough. I'm gone...

Come, gentle night, come, loving, black-brow'd night,
Give me my Romeo; and, when he shall die,
Take him and cut him out in little stars,
And he will make the face of heaven so fine
That all the world will be in love with night
And pay no worship to the garish sun.
O, I have bought the mansion of a love,
But not possess'd it.

Day Six ...

2005-02-28T22:05:00.000+08:00

It's the end of day six... Today I went for a job interview and attempted to escape and go out... but when I called home.. mom did not sound right. I decided to cancel on my friends and go home. I was right. I shouldn't have come home.

I thought.. hey.. at least my family is still around... and what do I see when I come home? I see everyone sittng in their own corners.. It just pisses you off that you even bothered. Sounds weird of me to say this right?? Well.. when this happens too often.. you eventually get pissed off.

Sometimes I wish I was all alone. Have a normal job.. come home after work to my own quiet apartment in a city where no one knows me. I've not felt this way in a long time. I thought I was over this feeling... Sigh... Where is he?

Day Five ...

2005-02-28T12:59:00.000+08:00

I was fine these four days but last night.. it really got to me. I'm all alone. Last night I finally caved in. I cried.. and cried and cried while I listened to the fimilar voice in a msg he left me before he left till I fell asleep.

Day Four ...

2005-02-27T03:18:00.001+08:00

I went to Jb today. Thought that if I kept myself occupied.. I won't feel so sad. We met at abt 11.30am at the causeway and got through the causeway about 2 hours later.

jam packed. Hated it. Did not know why I said I'd go. My sore throat did not help either. My stuffed nose was rather helpful. JB is smellier than my terrapin pond and hamster cage put together. God knows what these people eat.

Got through the Jam.. Went to have lunch, then we headed to the nearest shopping center. Can't remember it's name.
No.. That's not the shopping center.. But we were walking in the direction of that building. We walked around.. Everyone had something to look at.. But I just moved around from time to time just looking at things that weren't of any value to me. I felt like a spoilt brat singaporean kid. Sigh~* It did not help when I remembered how Dan pampers me. I bought my kitty a new eating dish and water bowl.

She seems to like it... either that or she was really... REALLY hungry. When we got outta the shopping center.. It was pouring heavily... Lightening and thunder and all.

Too heavy to do anything. Back inside the shopping center. Sigh... When we finally let the hopping center.. There was no time to do anything. Soon we went to eat dinner then headed home. Got home abt 1.30 tin the morning. My Day.. Sucked.. BIG time.

Day Three...

2005-02-26T01:42:00.000+08:00

I'm Dying.. I'm fallin sick... I have no energy.. not even to type. I hate falling sick. I don't wanna fall sick... Sigh.. when is he coming home... In a way i'm happy he's not here when I'm sick. I don't want him to fall sick too.

I met Ali and Nan today.. went to paragon.. disturb Hanif at work.. Then went to Apple Center at Wheelock.. Nan's Getting an iBook!!!! *faintZ~* Ali had to go to work.. So Nan and I took a walk from Far east plaza till Dhoby Gaut. stoppingat almost every Old Chang Kee... He's my old Chang Kee Kahki.. ;P

Got to go.. I'm Sleepy.

Day Two... (Part 2)

2005-02-25T00:21:00.000+08:00

Tonight.. no one is at home. I have a quiet smoke and look up at the moon... Somewhere out there.. I hope u're looking at the moon too.. it has a weird comforting feeling... I've not heard his voice in so long... well actually only 2 days.. I miss him.. I miss the company.. I miss his noise.. God how I hate feeling so alone and so.. so.. alone!! Argh!! ahh well.. what can I do.. I guess I'll just have to wait.. *SigH*

I'm kinda tired... Tomorrow I have to go Dog walking... I thought I could take fridays off.. oh well.. Ellen needs help anyway... besides.. I have nothing to do.. I wonder if anyone aside from Daniel thinks of me... I wonder if the think that they should do something to keep me company since dan would be outta town and I'd be all alone.. Sigh.. again.. if I don't make plans.. no one would I guess.. either that.. or they just leave me out.

Day Two...

2005-02-24T15:56:00.000+08:00

I'm barely alive. I'm dying of boredom. If not for Miss Selina and Jane.. I'd have pretty much nothing to do. Yesterday when I was in the pound Miss Selina noticed I was taking pictures. She told me to send her some nice ones. So instead of flooding her inbox.. I created a site that would display all the pictures that I took. Today.. Jane noticed I was taking pictures and she asked me if I could help her send some pictures to Miss Selina. Hence the the need for the site was reinforced. If you wanna check out the pictures.. Click on 'in & around the pound'. It's flashing 'NEW!' where all the other links are.

Anyway...This is the Story of our Little Amy who got adopted into the wrong home.

This is Amy. A Sweet Cream colored Lab. She's about 2? Like all Labs.. They're family dogs that love to be around... They love playing and you have to know how to cope with their generally over friendly behavior. It was not long till she was adopted. Here, everyone wants a pure breed. About a month or so went past and today I see a familiar face... Amy??? You're back????

It seems Amy was abandoned by her adopted parents. When she left the pound.. She was nice and fit.. Now she's been reduced to a bag of bones! This is Rocky.. See how fit he is??

Now compare him with Amy.

The story is that Amy was too hyper so her bitch ass half wit humans let her go. The AVA found her and told them to come get her... But they did not. They said they did not want her anymore. Amy's humans have since been black listed and will not be allowed to adopt ever again.

People like these irresponsible owners... Will and I mean WILL burn in hell for what they did to God's creature. ANYONE... Who does it... Will suffer a painful, grose death... And that's when you go to hell. There you'll cry and weep and curse and pray but no one will answer you because of what you did.

So if you do see anyone Hurt an animal.. Remember... Abuse is a crime... But remember.. Witnessing it and letting it happen.. Is an EVEN bigger crime. Have a nice day. ;D

Day One...

2005-02-24T00:11:00.000+08:00

This morning my baby left. He won't be back till 2nd of march or something. I din't even get to say goodbye.. sigh.. Went dog walking.. was home.. tried to sleep.. waited for him to call but he din't. Tried calling him but there was no reception. Tried to keep myself occupied.. went swimming at Jazmyn's place and got home not too long ago. It was fun! Still... nothing can replace his company. I guess I'll just have to wait like I always do when he goes away...

grumbles

2005-02-23T00:31:00.000+08:00

Awwww... man.. does that mean I have to as well???? >.<: DammiT~~~**

Smoking Kills....

2005-02-22T23:50:00.000+08:00

Yes it does... but in Singapore, it kills in another way. Most smokers in Singapore suffer from a condition known as Nomorius Moneius. It kills slowly by depleting the monetary resources of the individual. The only cure for the condition is to quit (smoking or buying). I'm going to be one of those individuals.

In the past few years, the prices for cigs have risen faster than it takes for a rabbit to reach sexual maturity. I'm not kidding. Just 5 years ago, a Marlboro hardpack cost just $4.50. Today it costs $11. And in the process, its (quite literally) burning a huge hole in my pocket. On the average, I buy a pack per day which equates to $330 per month (based on a 30 day month of course). $330 is enough for me to buy a new multi-effects pedal, pay for a trip to Koh Samui or even pay for the installments on a CAR. With the news that cigarette prices might go as high as $15 per pack, this is very very scary for me. The last time, the government announced that they'll raise cigarette prices up to $10. Now its $11. I don't think that cigarette prices will stay at $11 for long. It might even go up to $20. Which means smoking will be a fucking expensive habit. I think a person can get drugs such as heroin for even cheaper.

Anyways, I'm going to sailing tomorrow for 8 days. Going to be taking the opportunity to start cutting down on the smoking and make myself quit. I'm going to use the fact that I'll be saving a hell of a lot of money as motivation for me. Not forgetting the benefits to your health man. Better stamina and shit. But I have to be careful. Don't want to put on weight drastically after I quit. Must keep the mouth and the munchies in check. Going to put more time into exercise and the guitar. I'm going to start to be more productive. I think its about time.

Tomorrow's Monday!!!

2005-02-21T00:40:00.000+08:00

I'm probably the only person who looks forward to mondays. Lol~*

Tomorrow I'll be dog walkin again.. Doing what I do best... I hope I get my earn as you learn thing with K-9 Paradise... Their coach is ranked No.2 in the world! Not country.. not region.. but WORLD It'll be a dream come true!!! Weee~~~*** I don't really know what's going on with John but I hope he comes through too. The notes would be great in case I have a theory test.

Anyway.. here are some pictures from Chingay 2005 and What I did on saturday.
>>>>>Chingay 2005 & Jamming<<<<<

New movies to look out for...

2005-02-16T11:13:00.000+08:00

Spanglish

Hitch

Deuce Bigalow : European Gigolo

My very first Valentines Date.....

2005-02-15T12:15:00.000+08:00

Last night was perfect. Everything was simple. There were no flowers.. There was no Champagne.. There were no chocolates. Still.. we did not need them. We had dinner and a couple of drinks and said nothing much. We did not have to.. we did not need to. It was the best conversation ever! After all.. Its not about chocolates.. the Champagne or the flowers. We're just happy we found each other so young... well sorta young.. at our age.. our parents were getting married... NOT that I'm saying we should get married.. hmmmm.. Its nice... everything is good... What could possibly go wrong? ;D

Tuck Everlasting

2005-02-13T01:17:00.000+08:00

Jessie is 104 years old. He drank from a spring with his mom and dad and brother and horse. Today.. All of them live till they're a few centuries old... Everyone including the horse... Well accept the cat. She didn't drink from it.. So she died of old age. Jessie fell 30 feet one day and not a single bone was broken. Not even a scratch. Jessie met Winnie one day. They fell In love. Winnie met Jessie while she was lost in the woods. Jessie brought her home and showed her what it was like if she had all the time in the world to do what ever she wants. For the first time.. Winnie, an only child, stepped beyond the fence of her home and was free to have fun.. To run and play in the sun.. To ask questions... abt things she did not understand. And then one day.. After a whole day of swimming in lakes and running through fields and rubbing shoulders with wildlife.. Jessie had to leave the town for a while.. He was not sure when he would be coming back so she turned to Winnie and asked her to drink from the stream too... So that she could wait for him. And they could live forever together.

What would you if you were Winnie? What would you do if you had the chance of living forever? What if you could spend the rest of your days with your loved ones with out ever turning grey... Would you have drank from the spring???

You know what Winnie did... She did not drink from the spring. She realized that She should not be afraid of death but she should be afraid of not living life. Winnie Died at the ripe old age of 100. She lived her life and happy that she did. For the few days she spent in the woods with Jessie taught her one of the most important lessons in life.

St. Valentine's Day

2005-02-12T14:40:00.000+08:00

It is a day for lovers to exchange tokens of love-candy, flowers, engagement rings and champagne. But its origin dates back to the third century Rome.

According to the most popular legend, the day is a tribute to St. Valentine, a Catholic bishop, who was performing marriages for young lovers in secret. Roman Emperor Claudius II outlawed marriages for young men because single men made better soldiers than those with wives and families.

Valentine was sentenced to death.

However, before he died Valentine sent the first 'valentine'. While in prison,Valentine fell in love with the jailor's daughter and wrote her a letter, which he signed 'From your Valentine.'

Engagement Rings

Traditionally, the engagement, or betrothal ring, was a partial payment for the bride as well as a pledge of the groom's intentions. The expense of the ring was symbolic of the groom's wealth and his trust in the bride handling his money.

Ancient Greeks and Romans believed the diamond reflected the flames of love because they believed diamonds were splinters from the tip of Eros', the god of love, arrows.

The 'fire' of the diamond symbolizes innocence and purity, and the circular band symbolizes eternal love and perfection.

Every year, 2.2 million marriages take place in the United States. That means 6,000 a day.

Flowers

The rose was sacred to Venus, the Greek goddess of love. It symbolizes peace and war, love and forgiveness and passion.

For Valentine's Day, about 110 million roses will be sold and delivered within a three-day time period during the holiday.

Champagne

La Champagne, France is a region of timeless natural beauty and world famous vineyards. For centuries, champagne was the only wine considered worthy of an offering to God and kings.

Today, champagne is considered the most romantic wine, and the most often toasted with loved ones.

Popping the cork on Valentine's Day has become its own tradition.

Tradition

When the Puritan's settled in the Virginia, fruits had to be shipped from overseas, therefore, they were very expensive and exotic gifts to offer one in exchange for a courtship.

Now chocolate has taken its place in heart boxes and red wrappers.

In 2003, each American gobbled more than 24 pounds of candy, a large potion believed to be consumed during Valentine's Day.

Long Long week...

2005-02-12T13:08:00.000+08:00

I've been with out Dan so many times this week.. he's got to do duty today as well.. sigh... its so weird when he's not around.. there's nothing to do... no one to fight with.. and after that.. no one to play with... it's like buddy's missing.. my bestfriend's not there to here me complain... he always makes me smile.. I always have fun when its just the two of us. Its wonderful that I've found my bestest friend ever.. Phone call.. brb.

Very very tired...

2005-02-12T06:34:00.000+08:00

Its Saturday, and the last day of duty for this week. I'm feeling very very tired from the strain of doing duty every other day. Yesterday was really screwed up. Was made to stay back until 1630 because we didn't do our duty well on Thursday. I'm very very tired. I just wanna curl up in bed again. The skin on my fingers are peeling off due to contact with a very powerful chemical which I used to wash the gangway. Anyways... I have to go. Need to change up for work. Will blog again in another 28 hours or so...

Lazy days...

2005-02-11T16:05:00.000+08:00

I'm Lazy to blog.. nothings happening and because it's the public holidays.. my brain sorta switched itself off. Here's what happened In the last week or so.

Back from duty...

2005-02-09T10:02:00.000+08:00

Tired as anything... Need to smoke after breakfast... Parents at home... shit... anyways... did one of those thingies that Joanne did so here it is...

Vertigo by U2

"The night is full of holesThose bullets rip the skyOf ink with goldThey twinkle as the boys play rock and roll"
In 2004 you partied so hard... you forgot how to count.

What 2004 Hit Song Are You?

Munjen New Year's Eve...

2005-02-09T02:52:00.000+08:00

Just got home from my kick ass cool cousin's place. Had a swim.. "BBQ-ed".. took Tabby around.. She was quite social. I think i just might get her a companion to play with.. there's a few at the pound. I'll upload their pictures soon.

Sat with people I completely don't know.. but their stories were funny! The private joke and all I could not catch but the general ones were fun. Best of all.. I could smoke whenever i wanted to! ;D How cool is that?!

Tomorrow.. gonna watch that Keanu movie.. Con-something-tine... I have no idea how to spell it... anyway.. I have a new Link to add.. WEEE!! My List is getting longer!! Happy happy joy joy!!!

Well the worst is over at home.. hope things will look up from now... Tabby claire's home.. ate, drank and went to.. er.. see the dog abt a bone. I'm falling asleep.. soo.. yeah.. oh oh!! i did this and i think it's way cool!! weEEEEE You try it too!!

I Believe In a Thing Called Love by The Darkness

"I wanna kiss you every minute, every hour, every day
You got me in a spin but everythin' is A.OK!"

You played it cheesy and campy in 2004, but you know how to rock out.

What 2004 Hit Song Are You?

OH!! and this too.. hehehehe...

Best Line to Pick Up a Scorpio With

Your place or mine?

Discover your ideal love with a sample Intimacy Essentials Reading -- free!

What Pick Up Line Would Work On You?.

Anyways I'm off to sleepy land.. good night!!!!

Nice Slow Sunday...

2005-02-06T22:57:00.000+08:00

Today was kinda cool although dan and i were dead broke.. we caught racing stripes.. It's really sweet.. baby zeebras look so goofy! 5 out of 5 stars for the animals actin in it.. not much of a kids movie.. has a wonderful balance of emotion and comedy. David Spade was a fly.. goodness.. yeah and Nina in just shoot me was the bad guy.. she was .. if u ask me.. was playing herself.. only meaner... she was funny and got her just reward in the end. Dustin hoffman and whoopi was kick ass.. mandy more.. a nice sweet show jumping mare; sandy. Her voice really suited the role.

I got an sms from my dad at 8.50pm this evening...

Dad: time 2 come home
me : okay.. by 11pm okay ?(that's my usual time)
Dad: no 10.15
me : okok.. 10.45??
Dad: no 10.00
me : ="(
Dad: see you soon
me : ="""(
Dad: He He He!

Parents these days.. should not teach them how to sms.. anyway.. with V day around the corner.. the couples these days are really showing how 'affectionate' they are. (Dan, Hanif, Man, Said and I saw a girl screaming madly and throwing tantrums at her.. well we're guessing her boyfriend at the orchard mrt east bound platform.)

Girl: I did not say anything!!! (Screaming at the top of her lungs)
Boy : *sits with his head over his ears*
Girl: Who started making fun first!!!?!? *points at the boy* I did everything for you!!! *throws a fit* I did not say anything!!!! *starts crying*
Boy : *Sits with his hands over his ears*

Our train then arrived.. so we get on and we're talking abt it.. Said says.. "maybe she's complaining abt the size of his dick..." Then everything suddenly fell into place....

Girl: I did not say anything!!! (although your dick was so small!!)
Boy : *sits with his head over his ears*
Girl: Who started making fun first!!!?!? *points at the boy* I did everything for you!!! *throws a fit* I did not say anything!!!! *starts crying* (you should get the picture from here onwards...)
Boy : *Sits with his hands over his ears*

Goodness... anyway.. a joke to lighten up the mood...

BRITISH : Please divert your course 15 degrees to the South, to avoid collision.

U.S.NAVY : Recommend you divert YOUR course 15 degrees to the North, to avoid a collision.

BRITISH : Negative. You will have to divert your course 15 degrees to the South to avoid a collision.

U.S.NAVY : This is the Captain of US Navy ship. I say again, divert YOUR course.

BRITISH : Negative. I say again. You will have to divert your course.

U.S.NAVY : THIS IS THE AIRCRAFT CARRIER USS LINCOLN. THE SECOND LARGEST SHIP IN THE UNITED STATES' ATLANTIC FLEET. WE ARE ACCOMPANIED BY THREE DESTROYERS, THREE CRUISERS AND NUMEROUS SUPPORT VESSELS. I DEMAND THAT YOU CHANGE YOUR COURSE 15 DEGREES NORTH. THAT'S 15 DEGREES NORTH, OR
COUNTER MEASURES WILL BE UNDERTAKEN TO ENSURE THE SAFETY OF THIS SHIP.

BRITISH : We are a lighthouse. F*** off

Anyways.. hope you had just as an eventful day as I did.

BROKE!!!

2005-02-06T02:43:00.000+08:00

Its nearing the end of the pay cycle... and I'm broke again. And this month I'll be getting less pay than usual due to the deductions made towards my SAF group insurance that I'm going to terminate. Had a very interesting day today. Went down to Sentosa to see Joanne, albeit for only about 15 or 20 minutes, then headed to Man's place to catch the Man Utd vs Birmingham match. Just watched another episode of Kenshin as well. Sentosa by night is a really boring place if you don't have the money to sit at one of the beach bars to enjoy a quiet drink. Met Joanne's cousin Jasmine again. She's very likeable in the sense that she doesn't give 2 shits about what other people might think about how she lives her life. Kinda like a female version of me, but with more class. I'm just plain blunt and more rugged if you might say. And I don't like the idea of sucking up to the so-called 'higher class'. Screw them and their bullshit. Most of them don't know how to fucking eat in a restaurant. I know all these things but after living the so-called 'poor man's life', I've learnt to enjoy the simple things. Like sitting down at a coffee shop, enjoying the afternoon breeze while sipping on my iced milo. Who needs fucking Starbucks man? People think that just because I'm the breadwinner of the family, I don't know how to eat in restaurants or do the the things that seem the norm for someone with an elevated social status to enjoy. The thing is, I led that life. For most people, their first experience with mee soto or murtabak would be at the coffeeshop or one of those prata joints you find at Jalan Kayu. My first experience was at the Hilton poolside cafe. I had holidays at Club Med and shit. My dad did business with millionaires and they would bring us for dinner at these really fancy places. Didn't really like it. Felt that everything was artificial. I still do. I don't care if people talk about me being 'low-class' and all because I know that when it comes to acting all 'high-class', I've lived that life. Although its a lot more boring.

Back to blogging again...

2005-01-30T14:13:00.000+08:00

Yeah, I'm back from Meulaboh. Quite shitty actually. The heat there was terrible, thestench of death and burning was all around and the devastation was quite horrific... Finally jammed yesterday for the first time in more than a month... felt good to be chugging out some good riffs again... Got caught by Joanne's mom on Monday night at Joanne's place... thing is.. All I was doing was sharing some dinner with her... Then she throws a fit at Joanne... ah sigh... Just ignore her for a while... Reignited my Kenshin craze... gonna be ordering the DVD boxsets from Amazon.com once my pay comes in next month... All in their original Japanese... it'll be fun man... Going out later... to get out of the house so that I won't be sucked into the service nonsense... Need to pay for a lot of stuff as usual... Phone bills, Internet bills, insurance... Now I'm paying $130 a month in insurance premiums... Maybe I should stop one of them and use the money for something else... which reminds me, I have to put some money in my Maybank account or they'll close the account... I wanna go back to Koh Samui... don't like the pressure and lifestyle here in Singapore. Every Goddamn thing here revolves around the munjens... There are nice munjens around but the majority of them are fucking racists who think that just because there's more of their pathetic species on the island that they superior... Can't stand them chattering like monkeys everywhere they go... can't stand the fact that they accuse me of slanging because I've been taught to speak English properly and without all the Singlish accents... I have to fucking lower myself to their level for them to understand me... I hate being called a freak just because I fucking hate techno and whatever noise they listen to and I love rock & roll... Sigh... Can't wait to return to Koh Samui... lovely little island with the funniest looking airport you'll see and the most polite people you'll ever meet... I don't care man... I'm giong back there soon... I have to...

Bored

2005-01-28T01:27:00.000+08:00

I feel as if Dan's still not back from Aceh.. he's on duty today.

My friend's mom is in hospital again. Her condition has worsened. I'm very.. very worried.

I did not like dinner... And I hope I don't get the job at pet lover's center. Wish the Zoo would call me up.. .The SPCA too... speaking of which.. I have to send Lani something.

Saw this during dinner... hey babes.. now you'll know there are people with worse problesms than you do. hehehehehe~*

Anyway... Tomorrow.. I'm going to see my Gayle. I wonder how she'd react... wonder if she'd remember me.

Tomorrow.. I have the whole day with Daniel. *excited*

I'm Sleepy.. so I'm going to sleep now. Good night.

We are the youth gone wild.

2005-01-26T01:27:00.000+08:00

Dear God...

I know you're very busy

So I won't take long.

My brother is very sick.

If it's not too troubleosme for you,

Would u mind making him feel better?

If you could, it'll be really helpful.

Also bless my family and protect it.

Let no evil come to us.

I'm going through a tough time now.

I think you've heard me cry alone in the night.

I trust that you have a reason and a lesson for me to learn.

I love you very much and I think of you everyday,

Although my actions don't exactly show so.

But please.. I'm sure you know what I'm saying is heart felt.

Good Night God.. and sleep well.. have a good rest..
If u even rest that is.

Guess Who's Back... Back Again...

2005-01-24T01:39:00.000+08:00

He's finally reached singapore waters. I can't wait to see him tomorrow.

Tomorrow's Plans...
9am - Dog Walking
10.15am - Shower
10.45am - Start making my way to Changi Naval Base

But I ain't got no money... How to take cab in from Tanah Merah Ferry Terminal??? Plus Dan's mom has not called me... SIGH.. She Just HAD to go to batam again. In her words.. "I MUST GO!!! What would the people do there without me????" >.<: Why do I feel like banging my head against the wall untill I forget who she is???

I can't stand my mom. She ALWAYS manages to ruin special occations. I think she's going to keep dressing me of every other occation untill she's gone. She'd probably dress Dan too... sigh.. When will she learn when to stop.

Other than that.. everythings been alright. I'm Hungry... I'm sleepy... I bought Tabby Claire a tiara.. I celebrated my 22nd month Anniversary alone again.. and eah... did I say I'm hungry ? Now she's Princess Claire. So yeah... I'm going to sleep now... I Hope my baby calls me.. I'm going to try one last time before I sleep to call him. Hope it gets through. Good night.

2 days left

2005-01-21T10:55:00.000+08:00

I'm counting down the days to seeing my baby again.. but I don't know why I don't feel like seeing him.. It's like something is wrong. You know that feeling when u do something wrong to someone u love and then later u have no courage to face them?? Well I'm having that feeling but I did not do anything wrong! ...or did I..? I'm excited that he's coming home.. but somehow after last night's conversation... I don't know... It's like I've been banned from seeing my friends. It's not fair.. It automaticly becomes a problem when I go out with them. If I'm out with the boys.. Its no problem at all. I don't get it. Great.. now I really don't feel like going. I'd rather go dog walking instead.

It's really good for him.. It's good that he does this.. gets deplod and stuff.. he comes back with stories that I know he's dying to ttell me.. but I just am not interested in them. I wanna talk to him about what I did when he was not around... but I know it's not fair... Honestly.. I hate the NAVY. I apreciate the fact that it puts food on the table but it steels your loved ones away from you. If you people wanna make peace.. or do a friendly gesture to your neighbouring country.. DO IT YOURSELF! Besides.. you high class people always say u if u want something done u have to do it yourself.

Why every time He goes away I'll have some kinda thing going on that is really really making my moral hit rock bottom? I'm not too please with my results.. but hey! I finished school... woop di doo. -_-" I guess there's no other way around it. I'm just gonna have to face up to those scary Dhoughnuts and fry'em.

God I sould like a bitch. Always whining... Am I a whiner?? Dan says I kinda whine quite a bit.. I don't know...

I Finally watched emperor's new groove.. you should catch it. David Spade as teh lead Lama. Here's some pictures from the movie. 3 out of 5 stars.
She's the villian.. you'll see how. Oh! and Tom Jones is in it too.. he sings the songs... and er.. anything else I missed out???? Hmmm..... oh yeah! Wendie Malick Is in it too.. belive it or not.. she plays a good person. Wife to the sorta Hero in the movie. anyway i'm off.. see ya~*

Our Mad Crazy Psycho Adventures Continue....

Leave me alone boy!

My First Love

Its been a while

Happy 23rd Birthday???

Life as it is...

Hehe...

Just another day...

Ozzfest... Maidenfest???

2 years and 5 months today...

The iPod of Doom is back... with a vengeance!!!

Irritated...

We have an iPod down!

So tired...

Dan's Home...

He's comming home!! =D

10th Day

9th Day

8th Day

7th Day

6th Day

5th Day

4th Day

3rd Day

2nd Day

1st Day

Got me a medal man...

The Decline of Heavy Metal in Singapore????

Life goes on...

IPPT hell again...

Back with a Vengeance...

The weekend is almost here...

Is it finally happening????

Check this out....

Very well said...

Someone end my misery...

Faith

Someone Please Deflate Me!!!

Does this look Professional ?

*~Bintan~*

Family Day @ the Zoo!

Back Online...

I'm funnily confused.... ;P

I hate Bintan

Halfway through to begining my life...

Back from bintan........

I need a break...

Remind me again why I signed on...

Busy busy busy...

Screwed up

New gig???

2 years and a month

Lost...

Broke... yet again...

Sick again....

Ideas for a HEAVYMETAL Star Wars

hmmm..

Busy Busy Easter!!! ;D

Back... and dead tired...

Tonight I can sleep....

My 23rd of March 2005

2 wonderful years...

After a long weekend with out you...

The things you do when you're bored...

Thus; With a kiss I Die.

ARRRRGH!!!

Draw...

hmmm.....

Sunshine after the rain ...

Women shouldn't join the Navy...

Some kind of hope ...

Endless Pain

Day Six ...

Day Five ...

Day Four ...

Day Three...

Day Two... (Part 2)

Day Two...

Day One...

*grumbles*

~Bintan~

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